The Silent Scream [7th Chapter]

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Some minutes went by and she was going crazy, she was talking to herself, well, maybe not to herself but to her imaginary friend which she called Ben. It had been a while since she brought him up, she had always had Heather by her side, so she didn’t needed some childish character to make her feel better, but now that she was good, that childish character sounded really good.
She looked to her side over to the nightstand where she kept her diary, that was as the first BIG moment on her life since she saw her father leave without saying a word, she thought that maybe if she wrote something about it she would feel better so she wrote one more entry on her diary, saying:

You meant so much to me,
You were special and that’s no lie,
You brightened up the darkest day,
And the cloudiest sky.
Your smile alone warmed my heart,
Your laugh was like music to hear,
I would give absolutely anything,
To have you well and standing near.
Not a second passes,
When you’re not in my mind,
Your love I’ll never forget,
The hurt will ease in time.
Many tears I’ve cried,
They all poured out like rain,
I know you’re happy now,
And no longer in any pain.

She didn’t got out of her room for the rest of the day, and she barely went out of it during a whole week, she wasn’t in the mood to go back to that school, put up with all the shit and get over it by herself, because all she had left were the memories from Heather.
During that whole week she did got out of her house once, just once, and it was to go to Heather’s funeral, it was sad to see her there even though she looked like she was smiling, Rachel just had to think that she was in a better place now, a place where she hoped to go someday.
Her mom was worried, she didn’t wanted to eat, talk or even see anyone, even though seeing the note that Heather left made her realize that it was really something she felt like she had to do, it still was sad and she just stood in her room listening to her music, trying to get away from the whole world.
That week went by and she finally gained strength to go to her mom and ask her something, it was a difficult thing, but she had to do it, she needed to move on, so she went to her and said:
“Mom, I really need to ask you something, it’s really important to me.” She said, afraid of her mom’s reaction.
“What is it sweetie?” her mom said with a nice looking face.
Wow, after what happened her mom really got nicer, too bad it was just temporarily, it was just a matter of time until it got back to what it was before.
“Well, I wondered if we could move, like, to another city or something… I can’t stand being here, everything reminds me of something bad and I really want to move on and start again.” She said looking down.
“You know that’s difficult, there’s your school, and my work, Rachel we have our whole lives here.”
“I know it’s difficult, but we could try, I really need to get out of here, go somewhere new, move on and start over.”
“Ok then, if it is so important to you then I’ll see what I can find; maybe a new start isn’t such a bad idea for both of us after all.”
This conversation had gone well, maybe they would start getting along, she could only hope that it would help her getting over all that was happening, that things in a new school would be better, she hoped she could be accepted and finally be normal, that’s all she ever wanted.